Something Ain't Right 'Ere Brown Eyes My Dating Life The Dom 

Something Ain’t Right ‘Ere

When I woke up this morning, I was in a great mood. It’s date day today and I was super excited to see Brown Eyes. He’s taking me out early tomorrow, something to do with learning how to make coffee or something like that, but it’s curling up on the sofa with him tonight that I’m more looking forward to. That man can cuddle like a true pro. But then, in true typical me-style, the day went from excitedly great to totally shit in about 0.3 seconds. I started my…

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I'm No Void Filler My Dating Life The Dom 

I’m No Void-Filler

I had a little text exchange with The Dom yesterday morning and to be honest, I wasn’t going to write about it because he’s out of my life now. I’m grateful. I wasn’t yesterday when we had our text exchange and I was angry but now, after talking to some people and getting a different perspective about things, I’m glad I got out when I did. He told me I wasn’t disposable to him. After I explicitly told him weeks ago he WAS NOT to read my blog anymore and…

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I'm Making My Point Now My Dating Life The Dom 

I’m Making My Point Now

I care a lot about people. All I want is for people to care about me in the same way and honestly, I don’t think that’s too much to ask for. Sometimes I care too much, I do too much. I go out of my way to make sure the people I care about are happy and comfortable even when sometimes they don’t really deserve it. And what do I get out of it? Very little is the answer. I throw money at people even when I don’t have it…

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I Won't Be Disposable My Dating Life The Dom 

I Won’t Be Disposable

I culled half my social media friend list yesterday and boy do I feel good about it. The Director asked me yet another question I’d already answered in my typed-up dummie’s guide to do what he needed to do. I even highlighted it red yet he couldn’t see it / read it / understand it. What the eff? He didn’t read the email because he knew if he just sent me a message, I’d do it for him. He knows that if he asked anything of me, I’d probably do…

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Project: Love Thyself Me & My Opinions My Dating Life Someone New The Director The Dom 

Project: Love Thyself

Well, hello peeps. I guess I’m back. I knew I’d be back. I love my blog. I’m not ready to let it go yet. I just need to start using it better. If it’s meant to be teaching me lessons, why aren’t I learning them? So… Let’s update. I left things on a cliffhanger I guess. I was kinda torn between The Dom and The Director. I took a huge step back from The Dom because as much as I adore the guy and I want him in my life,…

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My Dating Life The Director The Dom 

Ultimatums

My life seems to be full of ultimatums right now. Ultimatums and uncertainty. I hate it. The Dom and I were fighting. If The Director is in my life, The Dom won’t be. He also seems to think I won’t be able to have a relationship with someone who DOESN’T know and read the blog. Of course he would say that… wouldn’t he? And what does that even mean? It really struck a chord with me and it sent my head into overdrive. And now I can’t stop thinking about…

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My Dating Life Someone New The Director The Dom The Lapdog 

Because At Christmas, You Tell The Truth.

I’ve watched Love Actually twice this week. I’d never seen it before, and it’s ended up becoming one of those movies I instantly fall in love with. And as I watching it, I realised a few things. So, in the spirit of Christmas, I’m telling the truth. Let’s start with The Dom.  Well, we met for the first time. I kept meaning to write about it but honestly, I just couldn’t seem to find the words. I kept starting posts and not being able to finish them, or just getting…

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My Dating Life NSFW / Sex The Dom 

I Want Me Some of That

I tried to take a step back. From The Dom, I mean. Things were getting too complicated. He was starting to ask questions I didn’t know the answers to. When were we gonna meet? Why am I still flirting with other boys? Confused and more than a little pissed off with my own indecision, I finally made a decision. I cooled things off and then we had phone sex. Isn’t that how all good ‘breakups‘ go? (I say breakup in the loosest sense of the word. We weren’t actually together,…

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My Dating Life The Dom 

Pheromoning?

I literally can’t keep up with the men in my life right now. I sound like a total slut so for that, I apologise in advance. I’m really not. I must be ‘pheromoning’ or something. It must be that time of the month. Maybe I’m in heat? (Just like my cat.) I tried to take a step back from The Dom and in doing so I apparently took another accidental step forward. We had another task for our game. I’m now two write-up’s behind. I think part of the appeal…

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My Dating Life NSFW / Sex The Dom 

Team Dom

I have a boyfriend. I did try to break up with him but then he changed my mind. Simple enough right? Nope, not simple at all. Because not only do I have a boyfriend but I also have a Dom. The Twirtation, now renamed as The Dom, seems to have made me his Sub. Sorry, sub. I’ve learned capitalisation of that is important. In fact, I’ve learned a lot about being  submissive. The dominating man I’ve dreamed of my entire adult life has apparently come along (at the WORST possible…

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