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Now You’re Gone

  CONTENT WARNING: DISCUSSING MISCARRIAGE For some bizarre reason, I found myself writing about an Iranian woman called Aylar Lie (don’t ask) and during my research of the woman, I realised she was the same woman who’d appeared in a number of Basshunter music videos. (She was apparently banned from entering Iran because of a porn career, but we’ll just leave that where it is because it’s ridiculous how women are still so heavily restricted.)  Instantly, my mind was drawn back to a time when Now You’re Gone was playing…

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Seven Years Ago

This was written in July 2016. I don’t know why I didn’t get around to posting it. Or finishing it, for that matter. But I’ve finished it, and here it is … (Oh, and if you’re wondering what ‘Because I Can’t Write a Novel‘ is all about, click the link to be taken to the start … ) I was drunk seven years ago today. My TimeHop reminded me of that when I woke up this morning. I was drunk and sat in a paddling pool in my friend’s back…

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It All Started With A Kiss My Dating Life NSFW / Sex The Hubby 

It All Started With A Kiss

I was in Amsterdam recently and whilst browsing the souvenir shops for something not weed or tit-related for gifts to take back home to the family, I came across a little book. It was an empty book of lists for you to fill in — favourite romantic movies, mix-tape love songs, relationship pet peeves, that kind of thing. I thought it was a bloody marvellous idea so I decided to give it a shot but instead of writing it down in a book I’ll probably never look at again, I…

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Things I Wish I Could Say to My Abusive Ex-Husband Domestic Abuse My Dating Life The Hubby 

Things I Wish I Could Say to My Abusive Ex-Husband

I don’t hate you. That’s the first thing I want to say to you. As I look at my TimeHop and I’m reminded of the six short years that have passed since I left you, I realise I don’t hate you. I don’t hate you at all. I want to but I just don’t. I don’t hate you because hate takes up so much energy and you’re not really worth that. I barely even think about you and when I do, I don’t really feel much. I laugh when I…

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Project: Love Thyself – How To Fall In Love With Yourself

It’s hard work trying to fall in love with yourself when all your life you’ve had people continually tell you and make you feel as if you just weren’t good enough. I was never good enough for The Hubby. He wanted a wife who was thinner, didn’t have as many stretch marks as I did, wasn’t as flabby as I was, had a perkier butt, a smaller waist, no scars from years of self-harm and abuse. I knew all of this because he told me. He told me almost every…

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The Fake Italian – Meet Number 34

So Facebook tells me, the Fake Italian (Number 34) is now a newly married man with a couple of springer spaniels and a few horses. Six years ago, however, he was a horny, young soldier boy, and a pretty hot one at that. Not my type – thin, short (my height), too pretty. I prefer my men a bit gruffer around the edges. He was far too much of a pretty boy for me. It didn’t stop me sleeping with him, though. Not much would have stopped me that night…

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Why Does She Want To Be Friends Again? Meet Number 10!

Have you ever had that one person that seems to friend and un-friend you every five minutes on Facebook? I have one. I’ll call her the Supervisor’s Wife. The Supervisor is Number 10 on the list What’s Your Number? Updated… Just a couple of days ago, she added me as a friend on Facebook again and honestly, I don’t know why she does this to herself. I don’t think her and the Supervisor are still together now but when they were, he was sleeping with me. In fact, this went…

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The Day I Ran Out Of My Abusive Marriage.

When I talk about leaving The Hubby, I talk about it in a really nonchalent way. Mostly because I don’t know how else to talk about it. Leaving him was the hardest decision I ever had to make. It was a decision well overdue. He almost destroyed me. Almost, but not completely. He had gone to the war zone and one of the last things we had fought about was the fact that I was now going to do everything that he was going to do. If he cheated, I’d…

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Big Love My Dating Life The Hubby 

My Peptide Addiction?

I’ve been wallowing in self pity for too long again obviously. My loving readers are sending me all sorts of help and advice. Some tough love. Some soft love. One really got me thinking. It was The Girl Who Never Grew Up who said it – those three little words that has pretty much fucked up my day. (In a good way of course. Thanks for bringing it to my attention chick! <3 ) “Google ‘peptide addiction’” I did… Peptide addiction.  Love and relationship addiction.  The theory behind why women…

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D.I.V.O.R.C.E. – A Year + Later.

Do you want to know what really pisses me off? I really want to divorce the Hubby but he’s making life difficult. Again. We had a chat a while ago and agreed to pay half each. Firstly, as much as I probably could afford to pay for it all if I didn’t eat for a couple of months and saved as much money as I could, I shouldn’t have to. And secondly, I’m putting my fucking foot down. I’m not paying for that prick anymore. The whole time we were…

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