Category: Mental Health

Bear Mental Health 

Six Months

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I haven’t had sex with my boyfriend for over six months. (It’s still Bear, by the way.)  Fuck me (literally). I said it. I actually said it. That’s the first time I’ve actually acknowledged it. Sat down, worked it out, jotted it down.  Six months. I bet you’re wondering what the fuck happened? Yes, well, so am I.  It started with me …  I was depressed. Very depressed. Couldn’t even get in the shower, brush my hair, or clean my teeth-depressed. But we’ll talk about that another time. Getting back…

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Bear Mental Health 

Why Won’t I Let Him Touch Me?

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My sex drive has entirely changed over the last few years. I probably should have warned you before diving in with something like that. Sorry. But depression, anxiety, and stress has probably had a huge part to play in the whole bonkers libido business, as well as going self-employed, quitting my job, bouncing from one highly inappropriate man to the next, the cervical cancer scare, the bowel cancer scare, and then going through the Brown Eyes saga. I’m not totally devoid of a sex drive these days but something has…

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Jock Mental Health 

I’m Fucking Falling For You

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Fuck me, I don’t even know where to start updating you with everything. I’m about a week behind in blog posts, so I’ll try to keep things nice and easy to read along with … but I have so much to tell you! “I’m picking you up after work. Wear the cowboy boots and that dress again, please,” Jock text me. It thrilled me that he’d told me what to wear. It’s a little bit of a kink of mine, I think; a man telling me what to wear, how…

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One Ball Mental Health 

Impending Boom

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Things aren’t going well with One Ball and I. In fact, they’re going pretty disastrously, but I don’t think that’s the whole reason I’m spiralling out of control right now. He was due to visit me the past two weekends and I’ve cancelled them both, plus I’m already trying to think of reasons to cancel the next weekend we have planned together. We definitely need to break up. In fact, I need to break up. I don’t know how he’s feeling. What happened? A whole load of him not letting…

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Big Love Mental Health 

Melancholy Nostalgia

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I felt melancholy today. Actually, I felt fine today. It was when I got home from work and found myself sat on my bed, alone, that I found myself feeling melancholy. At first, I didn’t know why I felt that way. The day was a good one, with nothing bad to report; what did I really have to be sad or melancholy about? But then I realised what it was: loneliness. I’m lonely. To other people – outsiders – I’m the girl who jokes around a lot. She likes to…

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