7+ years of my life in very graphic detail. Dating | sex | mental health | life blog. Frequently #NSFW 18+
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I have just had the most amazing four sleeps with my homeboy (Jock) and honestly, I’m in the bestest kinda love. The real kind. I have no words to describe exactly how much I’m feeling for this guy right now. This guy is the most amazing person I have ever met. He’s funny and cool and tender and loving and a real man and… I could go on for some time. Do you mind? Honestly he is rocking my world in a way that I don’t think anyone has ever…
Read MoreSo there have been another couple of blissful days with my beautiful Tattooed Jock. Another couple of days that we spent literally hanging out in his trailer. We didn’t go anywhere. We didn’t do anything. We just fucked. We fucked and watched X Factor and ate bread and we fucked. That’s all we did for the entire weekend. It was amazing. And beautiful. I’m still very much in love. Of course, something had to go awry because that’s what happens with my love life, isn’t it? When I text the…
Read MoreAh that jealous bitch has returned. I haven’t seen her in a while. She’s been away for a while. I’ve not really had anyone that I was that bothered about to get jealous for a long time so it’s a feeling I’m not enjoying much. I thought I’d managed to get rid of her for good. I trust Jock and I feel that I should say this. I do trust him. I think he’s a good guy and I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t do anything to jeopardize our love for…
Read MoreEvery now and again, Jock will send me songs that I should listen to. It’s his way of telling me how he feels. It’s cute really – I kinda like it. He always seems to find the perfect song. It all kick started with “All of Me” by John Legend. The song gave me goosebumps. It’s such a beautiful song. Jock sent it to me with the message “That’s exactly how I feel about you”. It melted my heart. We are literally the cutest couple in the world. You remember…
Read MoreYeah so he’s pissed me off. Jock I mean. I haven’t seen him in over a week. It’s now Thursday and we had plans to see each other Saturday night and Sunday day if I wasn’t working. Well, in true male fashion he’s gone and thrown a spanner in the works and I’m not happy about it at all. I apologise in advance if I sound like a petulant child but I don’t care. We barely see each other these days because I’m taking on more hours at work and…
Read MoreI’ve not heard from Jock since yesterday morning when he messaged by at ridiculous o’clock in the morning. The last message he got from me was almost exactly 48 hours ago. I know I never messaged him back yesterday morning but why hasn’t he messaged me again? Referring back to the previous blog post, it would appear that he has decided to go out with his ex-roomies than see me. If he had bothered to message me, he would have known that I was off work sick yesterday because I…
Read MoreOkay I’m starting to get worried now. The last time I spoke to Jock was Thursday evening. It’s been 4 whole days now and we haven’t exchanged a word. How long do you think you need to leave it before you class yourself as officially single? Not that I want to be of course…. It just doesn’t appear to be going very well. I’m forever changing and swapping my shifts to make sure that I can get time off that coincides with his. I genuinely want to change my life…
Read MoreOkay, I didn’t message him yesterday and I’m sorry to talk about it again. I’m so agitated these days. I can’t sit still. I didn’t sleep well last night. I’m off work today and I can’t stay anywhere for five minutes to get a task completed. My attention span has gone down to about 3 seconds. I’m annoyed. I was going to text him when I woke up simply saying “I’m assuming we’re done here?” I didn’t send it. I didn’t send anything. Now my feelings are most definitely hurt.…
Read MoreAt exactly 7:56am this morning, as I was in the middle of getting ready for work, I lost it. It’s been 6 days since Jock and I last spoke. At this point, I had officially had enough. That was it. It was coming out there and then, no matter how long it took us. “So I’m assuming we’re done here then?” It came out in a fury. He got the full force of 6 days worth of silence and an early morning wake up right there in that text and…
Read MoreSo I had an absolutely perfect weekend with my Jock. I’m so glad we’re back to normal. It was like nothing was wrong. I loved it. We went to The Redneck’s 40th birthday party last night (Saturday night) and although I was apprehensive, I had an absolutely amazing time. By all accounts Jock and I had amazing sex when we got home but I will admit that I was plastered. Or trolleyed. Or bungalowed… for those that have ever watched the British comedian Michael McIntyre; I was d-r-u-n-k. I don’t…
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