Thinking Out Loud.

Jock sent me a new song. He does this every time we have a fight. Remember ‘Better Man’ by Paolo Nutini? It’s turned into his ‘thing’. I quite like it. This time it is an Ed Sheeran beauty – ‘Thinking Out Loud’

As soon as I watched the video, my heart melted. He knows what he’s doing. He knows how to soften me up. Secretly, I love it. Maybe we found love right where we are? I’m listening to it as I write this and honestly, I can’t help but smile.

Yeah I’m pissed at him but I do still love him. Isn’t that what love is all about? Arguing and then making up again? Life would be so boring if everything went to plan, wouldn’t it?

I wanted to message him back but I haven’t yet. I’m going to share the video on my Facebook later. He’ll know I’ve seen it and instantly fallen in love with it. I won’t need to say anything to him. I won’t need to admit defeat. He’ll just know. And then we’ll be back to normal.

See that’s what we women really want, isn’t it? Someone to vent out to irrationally from time to time? Someone who knows we don’t really mean a single word of what we are saying and know even though we are really pissed, we’d still be fucked without them. Just don’t let us know that you know it.

We want to vent our anger directly at you for a couple of days each month. Some months it might be for more days than others. That’s sadly just the way our hormones work. If you think dealing with us is difficult, try being one of us. Our minds go nuts and we don’t know why it happens, but it does. Deal with it. When we soften towards you after a big rant, don’t make a big deal of it. Don’t even bring it up. Don’t expect an apology either… That will come a couple of days later more often than not. Don’t try to rush it. Know that it will come.

I wasn’t pissed at Jock because he went to see his step-daughter on Father’s Day. That’s not why I was pissed at all. I was pissed because he went at the time that he did. There was four hours between him getting that phone call and him leaving, and I’m sure he knew we were heading to my Papa’s for 2pm. We had the conversation enough times. How could he not have known? Anyway, not that it matters now. He’s softened me up. I’m over it. Once again, he has shown that he handles me like a pro. I suppose I had better tell him he’s forgiven then… 😉

To find out why I was pissed at him in the first place, check out Stood Up.