Dating Jock Life Mental Health 

I’m Fucking Falling For You

Fuck me, I don’t even know where to start updating you with everything. I’m about a week behind in blog posts, so I’ll try to keep things nice and easy to read along with … but I have so much to tell you! “I’m picking you up after work. Wear the cowboy boots and that dress again, please,” Jock text me. It thrilled me that he’d told me what to wear. It’s a little bit of a kink of mine, I think; a man telling me what to wear, how…

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One Ball Mental Health 

Impending Boom

Things aren’t going well with One Ball and I. In fact, they’re going pretty disastrously, but I don’t think that’s the whole reason I’m spiralling out of control right now. He was due to visit me the past two weekends and I’ve cancelled them both, plus I’m already trying to think of reasons to cancel the next weekend we have planned together. We definitely need to break up. In fact, I need to break up. I don’t know how he’s feeling. What happened? A whole load of him not letting…

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Big Love Mental Health 

Melancholy Nostalgia

I felt melancholy today. Actually, I felt fine today. It was when I got home from work and found myself sat on my bed, alone, that I found myself feeling melancholy. At first, I didn’t know why I felt that way. The day was a good one, with nothing bad to report; what did I really have to be sad or melancholy about? But then I realised what it was: loneliness. I’m lonely. To other people – outsiders – I’m the girl who jokes around a lot. She likes to…

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