If you’ve read my last post, you’ll know that I went on a date with One Ball, then ended it with that awkward-hug and kiss-on-cheek combo. I checked my phone sporadically for a message from him, and the date aftermath drove me a little crazy.
Well, I now have an update for you fine people.
The Text
I was so sure that OB was going to send a “Thanks, but no thanks,” message, which is why I only checked my phone for a message every hour, rather than every half-an-hour.
I waited.
I waited a bit more.
Then, you guessed it: I waited some more.
Eventually, my phone buzzed. It was a text from him:
“Sorry about the awkward kiss/cuddle thing. I’m not very good at that.”
What does that mean? Does he like me? Did he want a better kiss/cuddle thing? Was the awkward kiss/cuddle thing because he didn’t like me? What does it fucking mean?!
I’m no closer to the truth.
Fuck.
See, I don’t know if I like him more because I don’t know whether or not he likes me, or if he has *something*. I’m disappointed that he didn’t kiss me, and I zoom to my phone whenever it vibrates with a notification in the hope it’s from him. He makes me smile. He holds the power to brighten up otherwise shitty days – or he has so far, at least.
Ah, Shit
I think I like One Ball, you know. Yes, I know it’s early days, but I’ve got the butterflies zooming around inside me, and all the other cliches that seem to fit when you’re developing a crush.
I wish I could just ask him, “So, what’s the deal? Do you like me? No?” Maybe I should just ask him? Could I take the outright “Nah” rejection?
If he doesn’t like me, though, it’s better to get it out of the way sooner rather than later, right? Like ripping off a plaster?
I wish dating were easier. I’m tired of trying to work out what a man wants.
What does he want, though?
Help.
The next blog post in the dating timeline is this one: The Guy I Couldn’t Get Rid Of (Literally.)
Thanks so much for reading my blog today! 🖤
Want to read all about One Ball’s story, right from the very beginning? You’ll find that right here.
You can also read all about my disastrous dating history, right from the beginning, right here: Table of Dating Contents.
Alternatively, why not have a little peek around here:
