Mental Health

2025

I thought I was holding things together pretty well in the first half of 2025, but looking back now, that was sheer delusion. I wasn’t holding anything together; I was swallowing things, burying them deep, and calling it compartmentalisation – which is a good idea in theory. In reality, though, I was...

Six Months

I haven't had sex with my boyfriend for over six months. (It's still Bear, by the way.)  Fuck me (literally). I said it. I actually said it. That's the first time I’ve actually acknowledged it. Sat down, worked it out, jotted it down.  Six months. I bet you're wondering what the fuck happened? Yes, well, so am I.  It started with me …  I was…

Why Won’t I Let Him Touch Me?

My sex drive has entirely changed over the last few years. I probably should have warned you before diving in with something like that. Sorry. But depression, anxiety, and stress has probably had a huge part to play in the whole bonkers libido business, as well as going self-employed, quitting my job, bouncing from one highly inappropriate man to the next, the cervical cancer scare,…