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I stalked him. I don’t know why I did that. He has one new friend on Facebook. She’s heavily tattooed and pierced like me. I guess he’s moved on. Or maybe she’s just an old friend. Or maybe I shouldn’t care. I do though. I was helping my Grandfather sort some stuff out on his Facebook and thought I’d have a little look while I was there. He’s blocked on mine. I don’t know why I typed his name into the search bar. I knew it would hurt me. He’s…
Read MoreI’m not going to lie to you, Christmas Day was pretty fucking tough. Because I’ve been sick recently, I’ve not managed to get out much so I’ve not bought any one’s Christmas presents. Avoiding the situation completely, I told everyone that I hadn’t managed to get everything ready in time and I didn’t want to see them. I think my sister was pretty upset but honestly, I’m the Grinch that stole Christmas right now and I hardly think its fair to inflict my misery on them. The Bestie wants the…
Read MoreAwkward situation yesterday… So, Jock’s brother messages me asking to sort him out a discount for some work-related stuff. I’d promised I would do this before we broke up but I didn’t think he’d actually turn around and ask me to sort it out for him now we weren’t together. Kinda cheeky, don’t you think? Turns out, he didn’t know we weren’t together anymore. Awkward. I played it cool – Sorry, I’m not back at work yet and Jock and I are no longer together. He was sorry to hear…
Read MoreIt’s been a really good day for me. Well, up until a point, anyway. I left the house today (woohoo!), my insides behaved themselves, my love life is still going swimmingly, I did some shopping, had a lot of fun, and then I learned about a massive sale I’d made and the commission I’d get from it. It was the biggest commission I’d made in a single sale, so I hit the roof with glee. As happy as I was, it felt as though there was something missing. Like my…
Read MoreI see this guy every day who is the absolute spitting image of Jock. It’s his actual Doppelganger. I don’t know why or when it started happening, but I always seem to see him. There was the time I walked down the road from the train station on the way home from work and passed him on the street. Then there was that one time I looked out my window at the *exact* moment he walked by it. It’s starting to feel like I seem him every single day and…
Read MoreI’ve been quiet again. That’s because not much is happening in my life. I’ve had a few more texts from The Fireman. Things are still sailing along with not much to talk about with Someone New. I still haven’t heard a peek from Jock. Not that I ever expected to, obviously. Actually, if I’m being honest about it, I did expect to. At the beginning of our relationship, Jock lived in a house with three other women. It was a house-share thing. One of them was lovely – an Irish…
Read MoreI don’t know what to say. Jock messaged me. 1:20am – two words – “you ok?” My heart hurts and my brain is fried. I’ll over-analyse this to death tomorrow. After my endoscopy. Which is in 6 hours. Why? Fuck. Why?
Read MoreIt was late at night and I couldn’t sleep. I found myself exchanging messages with The Fireman until the early hours of a Thursday morning for something to do, and it wasn’t long before he started asking questions about my current beau – Someone New. Specifically, asking questions about the definition of us. How are you meant to define and explain a relationship when you’re not even sure what it is yet? “Hasn’t it been a few months now?” he asked. “Yes, almost three months, but what’s that got to…
Read MoreI can’t tell him what I want to say to him. I can tell you guys though. So I am. Dear Jock, I wanted to text you back but I couldn’t. In fact, I’m not even 100% sure I even wanted to. Part of me felt compelled to, but something deep down inside me told me that it would be a very bad idea. I’ve started to learn to trust that feeling. So I did. I’m seeing someone else now. In fact, we’re in a relationship. We’ve been seeing each…
Read MoreSomething happened to me today that was utterly ridiculous. I was happily stood behind my counter, minding my own business and this figure came towards me. Short, stocky, grey hair, little chubby face … From the other end of the store, I could have sworn it was Jock. He got closer and I could feel my eyes welling up. My palms started to get sweaty. I started to feel agitated and like time was actually moving in slow motion. For a moment, I didn’t dare breathe. He got closer still,…
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