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FUUUUUUUCK! I FINALLY plucked up some balls to tell The directot what I wanted to say to him, and what did he go and do? He went and fought for me. A lot harder than I’d actually given him credit for. “I kinda hoped we’d have a chance to talk this week but we’ve both been super busy! I like you a lot, and I’ve had a lot of fun with you but it feels like we keep flatlining. You’re a really busy guy and I’m busy too but I’m…
Read MoreThe Director and I are pretty much over, but I don’t know how to tell him. That’s pretty much the long and short of it. We’ve barely spoken the last couple of days. In fact we’ve sent no more than ten text messages to each in 72 hours. That’s not right. We’re meant to be dating. Aren’t we? This happened once before. We barely spoke for a few days and then we had this great big chat where he told me he felt we had flatlined and he didn’t want…
Read MoreI need to think of a better name for my Twirtation. I’m trying to think of a really good one, a really juicy one. One immediately springs to mind but I can’t use it. It would be far too obvious who he was. Aaaaaaanyway. Remember I said he wanted to play a game? Well, I didn’t exactly agree to the game but it turns out we’ve started playing it anyway. Boyfriend aside (still the Director,) I’m pretty sure we had what can only be described as WhatsApp-sex the other day.…
Read MoreErm…. so, Someone New sent me a message last night. On Instagram too, bizarrely. I don’t know why he messaged me on there, I don’t think we’ve ever sent each other a message on there before. I didn’t even know you could direct message. I learn something new every day! I’m guessing he deleted my number, that’s probably why he sent me that message on Instagram. He said I’d popped up on his feed and he hoped my tests went OK. Yeah, right, I know the real reason he got…
Read MoreI keep talking about The Director, and the up and down relationship we seem to have found ourselves in but one person I haven’t spoken about enough, or at all for that matter is The Twirtation. He’s still around in a roundabout kinda way. I seem to have the hardest time writing down my thoughts about him probably because I know he’s going to read it, but I need to write about him at some point right? Why not now? We’ve been talking for a while now except he’s agreed…
Read MoreIt’s been such a long time since I blogged or at least it feels like that. It’s all been a bit nuts. I don’t even know where I should start. The Twirtation went and got all complicated and The Director and I broke up and made up again… Kinda. I’m currently sat on his couch with my feet up on his lap. Remembrance Day parade over, a spot of lunch done, we’ve retired to the couch so he could watch some shit on TV and I could catch up on…
Read MoreI had my colposcopy on Monday. Petrified wasn’t quite the word I would have used to describe it. What’s worse than petrified? Well, I was that. Double scared. After the LLETZ last time, I wasn’t looking forward to having it a second time around and I’d convinced myself it was going to happen. Plus that whole HPV positive thing really puts a dampener on things, you know? In case you’re not all caught up, here’s a little bit of background. I had my second ever smear at 28, and it…
Read MoreSo… I didn’t go last night. I didn’t go and see The Director. We kinda talked last night and we kinda talked some more this morning. I don’t really know where we’re at. I do know this though – this is a lot of hard work and hassle for something that’s only been going on for a few weeks. What are we at? Like eight weeks? Too soon for all this drama and bullshit that’s for sure. He said that things had ‘flat-lined’ for us since the Going-to-the-States Fight. I…
Read MoreUgh. I decided to play The Director at his own game, and it kinda back-fired a little. Life is a bitch like that. I played it cool about our date tonight, kinda assuming he would blow me out. It sounded like he was going to… He couldn’t get out of an event tomorrow and he’d need to leave home early in the morning. I said, “No worries” assuming that was his way of saying ‘thanks but no thanks’ and it was left at that. For a while at least. A…
Read MoreI’ve gone and planted a fucking seed now haven’t I? The whole not being his only girl seed. I don’t think I’m the only girl The Director is talking to. Things have definitely changed. Once upon a time my ticks would turn blue the very second I sent him a message. There were many times I unlocked my phone after being away from it for half an hour or so, sent a message to him and the ticks would still turn blue immediately. That meant he was already looking for…
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