Date Aftermath
If you’ve read my last post, you’ll know that I went on a date with One Ball, then ended it with that awkward-hug and kiss-on-cheek combo. I checked my phone sporadically for a message from him, and the date aftermath drove me a little crazy.
Well, I now have an update for you fine people.
The Text
I was so sure that OB was going to send a “Thanks, but no thanks,” message, which is why I only checked my phone for a message every hour, rather than every half-an-hour.
I waited.
I waited a bit more.
Then, you guessed it: I waited some more.
Eventually, my phone buzzed. It was a text from him:
“Sorry about the awkward kiss/cuddle thing. I’m not very good at that.”
What does that mean? Does he like me? Did he want a better kiss/cuddle thing? Was the awkward kiss/cuddle thing because he didn’t like me? What does it fucking mean?!
I’m no closer to the truth.
Fuck.
See, I don’t know if I like him more because I don’t know whether or not he likes me, or if he has *something*. I’m disappointed that he didn’t kiss me, and I zoom to my phone whenever it vibrates with a notification in the hope it’s from him. He makes me smile. He holds the power to brighten up otherwise shitty days – or he has so far, at least.
Ah, shit
I think I like One Ball, you know. Yes, I know it’s early days, but I’ve got the butterflies zooming around inside me, and all the other cliches that seem to fit when you’re developing a crush.
I wish I could just ask him, “So, what’s the deal? Do you like me? No?” Maybe I should just ask him? Could I take the outright “Nah” rejection?
If he doesn’t like me, though, it’s better to get it out of the way sooner rather than later, right? Like ripping off a plaster?
I wish dating were easier. I’m tired of trying to work out what a man wants.
What does he want, though?
Help.
So much love to you for reading my blog today! 🖤
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