Big Love Jock 

I’m Still Not Over My Ex. Me Neither…

I’m still not over my ex. I read a piece on Thought Catalog, where the writer said that she didn’t think she still loved her ex, but she also didn’t think that she was over him either. And that’s kind of how I feel right now about Big Love. In limbo. Not sure. Wanting desperately to move on but not really knowing how to go about it … or to drop the feelings of sadness, dread, and guilt that come hand-in-hand with trying to find new love after a bad…

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Jock My Mr. Grey True Tales 

August 9th

Ah … August 9th. You might not remember August 9th, but I do. It’s a date I don’t think I’ll forget about in a hurry; one that brings a very cheeky blush to my face as I remember the things I was doing last year. Or, rather, the person I was doing last year: My Mr. Grey. If you haven’t yet read Warning! Explicit Content!, you might want to read it now. It’s proper NSFW, by the way. I sent him a Facebook post as soon as I awoke and…

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Jock True Tales 

Shooting Stars & Sex in Cars

It’s been a couple of days, sorry about that. How have you been? I’ve been busy. Too much work, too much other work, socialising, trying to have a life, you know. I’ve seen Jock, too. We’re still plodding along in that way we do, although we haven’t yet had the chance to book another sleepover. That doesn’t mean we haven’t fucked, though. There’s been plenty of fucking, don’t you worry. He took me out on a great date yesterday. He dropped his step-kid off becoming coming to pick me up…

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Jock 

He’s Gonna Say It

So, Jock dropped me off last night and things were weird for a bit longer. Me being me, I’ve been overthinking the shit out of it and I *think* I might’ve figured out what’s going on. Earlier in the day, not long after he picked me up, Jock said this to me: “I’ve got something I need to tell you but I don’t want to tell you now. I’ll tell you later.” I really fucking hate it when people do that to me. Like, tell me or don’t tell me,…

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Jock 

Can You Keep It Down, Please?

Jock and I got into trouble with his roommates for having noisy sex the other day, so that was super fun. To be fair, we didn’t exactly get into trouble, but his [female] roommate did pull him to one side after waiting for me to leave the room, to ask him if there was a chance we could keep it down a bit when we started shagging later. That left him with the hilarious task of trying to convey the message to me — and he thought it was proper…

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Jock 

Wicked Games

I think Jock might be playing wicked games with me, and I don’t like it all that much.  It started with the whole, “I’ve to something to tell you but I don’t want to tell you over the phone” business, and then there’s been little hints here and there, but still, here we are, L-word-less, but he’s still flipping hinting. It’s like he wants me to think that he’s going to say it, but doesn’t actually have any intention of saying it. Am I just fooling myself here? Could it…

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Jock My Mr. Grey True Tales 

Guess Who’s Back, Back Again

Guys, I need to talk about something that’s happened. My Mr. Grey and I have been texting … and it’s not all been clean and above board, if you know what I mean. I know, I know, what the fuck am I doing? I have a lovely new boyfriend now — and he really is lovely, isn’t he? He’s making me happy, keeping me sexually satisfied (for the most part), and not fucking things up in a truly catastrophic way. Yet. So, what the fuck am I doing indulging in…

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Jock 

How to Make Her Love You in 69 Days

Do you remember me telling you about the two days that Jock and I were due to spend together? [Wicked Games] Well, we spent those two days together, and it was actually really bloody lovely. I know what you’re wondering: Did he say the L-word? Nope. No, he did not. It’s quite ironic, really. First, all I could think about was saying it to him, but then I got over that and got a grip of myself. Next came his almost-L-word in virtually every conversation we had, which initially sent…

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Jock True Tales 

Maybe the Key to Great Sex Is …

Do you ever get shag flashbacks? I do. I can be going about my day, doing something completely boring and mundane, and all of a sudden – BOOM – completely out of nowhere, I’ll have a shag flashback to some naughty little moment that Jock and I shared a few days before. *I want to take credit for the term ‘shag flashback’ but I’m pretty sure Bridget Jones said it first. Today, it happened when I was talking to a friend on my way home from work. We’d bumped into…

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Jock 

The Barbershop Quartet

I just got home from work and, annoyingly, I miss my boyfriend already. Sigh. It’s been less than 24 hours since I said goodbye to the guy and I’m just sat here, sad, missing him. I don’t miss him a little bit, either … I miss him a lot. We’ve barely spoken today. Things were a bit weird when he dropped me home last night if I’m being honest about it. There were no long smooches before I got out, no holding hands, no telling each other that we couldn’t…

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