Bear 

Inflated… Ego?

I don’t know if there is a right or wrong time to talk about this. I don’t even know if I want to talk about it at all. But my fingers are tapping so I’m going with the flow, and right now I want to talk about a little problem called erectile dysfunction. “So … um … I had a little problem before. Well, um, I guess you could call it a big problem. But, yeah, I couldn’t … um … get it, well, you know … up. But I…

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Bear True Tales 

A Bit of Halloween Face-Painting

I was wearing sweat pants. Not just any sweat pants, but the ones I dye my hair in. If we were getting crazy with makeup and fake blood, I didn’t want to do it in my jeans. That’s my defence for wearing my skanky pants around him, anyway. I was also sporting the white vest-top that I dye my hair in, hair tied back, no makeup on (because he was just about to do it all for me), I was hardly at my sexiest. But there was something about it…

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Bear 

One Night Turned Into Three Nights

Do you remember I said a while back, probably in one of my last relationships, about a moment in the early stages of a relationship when something just “clicks” into place? Like all of a sudden you’re no longer dating … you’re in a relationship. Things just “click” into place and you find yourself doing “normal” things together, rather than just the date-stuff you’d usually do to try and impress your potential new other half. Well, that moment happened in the last few days with my beautiful Bear. Because I’m…

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All Clear Bear 

All Clear

So …. Remember I said that dating a schizophrenic would be easy? Famous last words, right? Okay, admittedly I’m being a tad overdramatic here, but Bear is pissing me off a tad. Just a tad though, nothing to worry about. Yet. I’ve been super busy, and pretty under the weather too. There was nothing wrong, I just go through phases where I want to be left alone. I don’t want to go out and socialise with people. I don’t want to listen to how great other people’s lives are going.…

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Bear 

Bear’s Girlfriend: The Sleepover

So … Bear and I had our first sleepover! I’d forgotten how much fun sleepovers could be, especially at my house. It’s been such a long time since I invited a man into my space … Too long perhaps? He was late. Hours late. He had clinic-stuff to do, because I’d demanded he went to the GU-clinic before I slept with him. And he had tattoo-stuff to do too. But then he got the train to mine – two and a half hours of train ride, to be precise. That’s…

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The Accidental Brown Eyes-Shaped Hole Bear 

I Like Boys With Tattoos

So, where we at? Oh yes, I’d just admitted I made that whopper of a mistake for what feels like the bazillonth time. But why? Well, because I think there are some similarities between him (BE) and Bear (my new BAE). I also think I need to talk about them. But where to start? Bear: I’m going to tattoo myself tonight I think.  The moment I got that text, I called him. Call it female intuition or gut instinct, I don’t know, but I read far too much into what…

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Bear Bear 

Bear

Ahhhhhhhhhh! I don’t know how I do it – I have these AMAZING great first dates. And in a world where bad dates are the norm, these good dates are something else. SOMETHING ELSE ENTIRELY!  In case you hadn’t already figured it out, I am fucking excited. We went to the Big City – a halfway (ish) point between his and mine. I was petrified about the journey. Public transport is a big issue for me, especially long journeys, and even more so if I’m all by myself. I get…

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Bear 

Mr. Schizophrenia

“I have schizophrenia.” Hmmmm. This is a really tough blog post for me to write. It’s taken me a while too. I keep writing things and then deleting them, and the same can be said for my tweets. I just don’t know how to broach it, how to talk about it, how to ask questions … Except now I think I need to because it seems Mr. Schizophrenia isn’t going anywhere. And I’ve started to quite like him. The usual rules apply – tall, dark, mysterious, not conventionally attractive, covered…

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