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I Am Such a Fucking Idiot

August 1, 2013April 12, 2020 notsosexinthecityAnxiety, dating, Ex-Factor, falling in love, Getting the Ick, heartbreak, love, Moving On, new love, Overthinking, Reflection, Self-Sabotage3 Comments

So … on Thursday night, I went out and got drunk. D-r-u-n-k. Blind, stinkin’ drunk. Me and a couple of my work colleagues had been invited to a training evening, but the training evening was actually an evening in a not-so-local pub, with a free bar. As you can probably imagine, it turned into less of a work event and more of a complete disaster the more the night went on … and the more the beer flowed. I had a fantastic night, flirting a little too much with the…

Dating Jock

Rawr? The Pros and Cons of Jock

July 28, 2013March 27, 2020 notsosexinthecityfalling in love, Getting the Ick, love, Moving On, Reflection, Sexual Chemistry

I really can’t make my mind up about Jock. One day, I think I’m completely and utterly, head-over-heels in love with him. The next, I keep seeing all these things about him that already piss me off, or will likely piss me off in the future. We’ve stopped counting dates. It seems strange to keep doing it now that we’ve committed to each other, the boyfriend-and-girlfriend label well and truly in place. And speaking of dates, our last one was amazing. We didn’t do anything big or grand; we just…

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Third Date (Dick) Analysis

June 30, 2013March 17, 2020 notsosexinthecityBad Drunk Decisions, Camping, Crushin’, dating, Dicks Dicks Dicks, First-Time Sex, Firsts, Moving On, Reflection, Sexual Chemistry

So … I don’t really know where to start. I’ve definitely got fuck-tinted spectacles on as far as Jock is concerned. Our camping third date went so perfectly, even with some of the sex awkwardness, that I’m just kinda walking around on cloud nine, blushing every now and again as I remember some of the naughty stuff we did. And speaking of naughty, I fucked up. We fucked up. When we woke up in the morning, a little hungover, ravenously hungry, and more than little in need of hydration, we…

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Tell Me What You See, When You Look at Me

February 25, 2013March 5, 2020 notsosexinthecityAnxiety, Body Image, confidence, depression, domestic abuse, Reflection, self esteem, self-harm, Weight

I found myself watching some TV show about women and the way they see their bodies, and it got me to thinking. How do you feel about your body? Are you happy with it? Are there things that you’d like to change? How far would you go to change them? It’s funny, the relationship we have with our bodies, isn’t it? We’re stuck with them until the day we die but still, something about them still drives us to despair. I have the worst view of me/my body. I’ve been…

Dating One Ball

The Tug-of-War.

February 13, 2013February 25, 2020 notsosexinthecityAnxiety, depression, Getting the Ick, long distance relationship, Reflection, Soldiers

I’m pulling away from One Ball. There, I said it. I’m creating drama for the sake of creating drama because there is nothing dramatic going on in my life and I don’t know why I’m doing that. But I am. Everything was going so bright and breezy. There wasn’t any fighting, we were getting along just fine, everything was fine … and I got bored. I fucked things up. We spent another awesome set of days together, laughing and watching movies and doing other things that regular couples do when…

Dating One Ball

I Need a Soldier!

January 22, 2013February 15, 2020 notsosexinthecityBad Drunk Decisions, Betrayal, cheating, Lies, long distance relationship, Reflection, Soldiers

“I know some soldiers in here, where they at, where they at? They wanna take care of me, where they at?” I love that Destiny’s Child song. It’s funny how that came on today, of all days, to remind me of my man-in-uniform obsession … One Ball and I had a conversation this morning about his leaving the military life and rejoining civvie street. The redundancy list was out and his name was on it. Thankfully, he wanted to leave the army anyway, but that redundancy list can be a…

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Happy New Year’s Eve!

December 31, 2012February 3, 2020 notsosexinthecityNew Year's Resolutions, Reflection, The Other Side of the World

This time last year, on December 31st, 2011, I made some New Year’s resolutions: * I wanted to give up smoking. * I also wanted to avoid falling in love with the following people – drug addicts, compulsive liars, cheaters, wife-beaters, emotional fuck-ups, attention seekers, and general fucktards. It was all very Bridget Jones, but I remember feeling very strong about the resolution I made as I posted it to Facebook. * I also said that I’d get my shoe-buying habit in check. So … how did I do with…