7+ years of my life in very graphic detail. Dating | sex | mental health | life blog. Frequently #NSFW 18+
Read the story of me and Number 47: Someone New.
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I see this guy every day who is the absolute spitting image of Jock. It’s his actual Doppelganger. I don’t know why or when it started happening, but I always seem to see him. There was the time I walked down the road from the train station on the way home from work and passed him on the street. Then there was that one time I looked out my window at the *exact* moment he walked by it. It’s starting to feel like I seem him every single day and…
Read MoreI’ve been quiet again. That’s because not much is happening in my life. I’ve had a few more texts from The Fireman. Things are still sailing along with not much to talk about with Someone New. I still haven’t heard a peek from Jock. Not that I ever expected to, obviously. Actually, if I’m being honest about it, I did expect to. At the beginning of our relationship, Jock lived in a house with three other women. It was a house-share thing. One of them was lovely – an Irish…
Read MoreI don’t really know what’s happened. A few days ago, I was well into Someone New, but then he went away for the weekend with work and I found a few things out. One big thing in particular. Apparently, he only stopped shagging a work colleague just a few weeks/months ago. They were shagging for six or seven months or more, she’s prettier and skinnier than me and I feel really insecure now, and they still work together. She’s barely 21; he’s 30-something. All of a sudden – and I…
Read MoreI have had a very bad feeling about today from the moment I first opened my eyes. I don’t know how to explain it to you, but I like to call it my female intuition. You know what I mean, ladies: that overwhelming sense of dread you get right in the very pit of your stomach when you know something bad is going to happen. I don’t know what it is. I woke up with no energy even though I’d slept for about 7 hours straight (for once). I don’t…
Read MoreSo … I’ve decided that I really should probably give Someone New a chance. Despite all of those red flags I talked about earlier on, he’s actually turning out to be a really nice guy. Maybe he’s just got some dominant, old-fashion, gentlemen’s charm working for him, rather than being the massive narcissist that so many of my exes seem to have turned into. Or am I just being naive? I had my little temper tantrum and made him agree to go to the clinic to get his sexual health…
Read MoreIt was late at night and I couldn’t sleep. I found myself exchanging messages with The Fireman until the early hours of a Thursday morning for something to do, and it wasn’t long before he started asking questions about my current beau – Someone New. Specifically, asking questions about the definition of us. How are you meant to define and explain a relationship when you’re not even sure what it is yet? “Hasn’t it been a few months now?” he asked. “Yes, almost three months, but what’s that got to…
Read MoreI couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t stop my hands from tearing at the bed sheets. I couldn’t stay still, squirming around his bed wanting more, and wanting him to stop, all at the same time. I was putty in his hands and I would have done anything he wanted in that moment.
Read MoreSomething happened to me today that was utterly ridiculous. I was happily stood behind my counter, minding my own business and this figure came towards me. Short, stocky, grey hair, little chubby face … From the other end of the store, I could have sworn it was Jock. He got closer and I could feel my eyes welling up. My palms started to get sweaty. I started to feel agitated and like time was actually moving in slow motion. For a moment, I didn’t dare breathe. He got closer still,…
Read MoreI’ve blown Someone New out so many times now, I’m not even sure if we’re still in a relationship. It’s been about four weeks since I last saw him. I’ve cancelled our plans for the last three occasions. I’m starting to forget what he even looks like, that’s how long it’s been. But it’s not because we haven’t tried. Every time we try to plan something, other stuff comes up. There was the time I had a shitty day because one of my clients disappeared off the face of the…
Read MoreYou see, I’m starting to see him in a slightly different light now, and I don’t know if that’s because I’m an uber-bitch because of the period from hell, or if I’m really not that into him. Because I really don’t think I’m that into him.
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