7+ years of my life in very graphic detail. Dating | sex | mental health | life blog. Frequently #NSFW 18+
Dated: Monday 11th July, 2016 I found this little beauty in the depths of my laptop, and I was going to delete it. It’s from ages ago – when Brown Eyes and I first started the make up / break up cycle. But I wrote it, and I said I was going to use my failed NaNoWriMo attempt to clear my backlog of stashed posts, so here it is … (Oh, and if you’re wondering what ‘Because I Can’t Write a Novel‘ is all about, click the link to be taken…
Read MoreI have no idea when I wrote this, but I found it therefore I’m sharing it. Not totally cheating my way to 50,000 words in November at all … Because I Can’t Write a Novel – Day 5 I miss you. There I said it. Will you please leave me alone now? Will you please fuck off? I admitted defeat. You win. I miss you. I still think about you. You still get inside my head. I don’t know why. I can’t seem to make it go away, to make…
Read MoreI hate it when Bear asks me questions like that, and he always catches me off guard when asking them too. It’s like he knows. He waits until I’m comfortable and safe and then BOOM. Awkward question time. I’m too lazy and comfortable to think of something off-the-cuff, and out comes the truth. I’m no good at lying. I never have been. “I genuinely don’t know. I really don’t know. I don’t know how to answer that question.” Honesty is the best policy, right? Nope, probably not in this particular…
Read MoreWhy does everything happen when my blog breaks? I say my blog broke, it was my own fault. Something about hosting and a bunch of other shit I don’t understand. It’ll be back soon, but in the meantime I’ll just be sat here storing away post after post. As soon as it comes back, I’ll share them all. I will. Although I say that every time yet I seem to have a hundred and one blog posts here that I started to work on but never quite found the time or…
Read More*Long post alert* I have a hundred and one unfinished blogs stored away, so I’ve decided I should probably make my way through them and get them finished. I’ve been super busy. The good news is my career / work life is going spectacularly. I seem to be earning more, socialising more, and generally having a good ol’ time being me. Bear and I are still doing our thing, Bestie and I are working our shit out, and with the exception of my cervix not behaving itself once again, I can’t…
Read MoreDear Brown Eyes, This post is dedicated to you. It’s also written to you. Seeing as you’re reading anyway, you might as well hear exactly what I think about you. Hey, you wanted to get inside my head. You went looking for it. Here it is buddy, black and white, happy reading! (Or were you hoping I didn’t know?) Any emotional attachment I had to you, any feeling of love I felt for you, disappeared today when I learned about your new girlfriend. At that moment I realised everything we…
Read More“It looks like he’s moved on …” Why would she tell me that? She knew I’d DELIBERATELY not stalked him. She knew he was blocked everywhere. Why would she say those words to me? Casually too, dropping them into conversation. I wondered why she’d rang just to “have a chat”. I love her, the mate who dropped that bombshell this morning, but sometimes she needs a fucking slap. She’s been stalking I guess. She’s had a been in her bonnet about Brown Eyes for a while – she thinks he…
Read MoreI rarely remember my dreams so the ones I do remember often stick in my mind. Last night’s dream was one of them, one I woke up from suddenly. We were together. We were wrapped up on his couch at least, except it wasn’t in his house. It was his couch but I didn’t recognise the surroundings – odd beige walls with furniture I’d never seen. I had my arms wrapped around him and he was crying. Not big, heaving tears, just little ones, slowly sliding down his cheeks. I…
Read MoreI should tell you about Courier Guy. The short version of the story is this – we spoke LOTS for about a week, made a first date and then I didn’t go. Do you want to know why I didn’t go? Because I compared him to Brown Eyes, that’s why I didn’t go. I cancelled on him. I told him I had an urgent workload that I couldn’t get out of, and we’d reschedule for another time. He was really pissed at me. He’d rushed around to get his work finished…
Read MoreIs there an appropriate length of time you should spend ‘getting over’ someone before you ‘move on’ to someone else? Bizarre question I know, but it’s something I’ve been pondering over the last couple of days. I keep dipping my toes in the Tinder-world and I always seem to end up messaging someone who catches my attention for a little while. It always goes the same way though – they ask if I’d like to meet and all of a sudden, I don’t really know what I’m doing. Should I? Is…
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