7+ years of my life in very graphic detail. Dating | sex | mental health | life blog. Frequently #NSFW 18+
Number 37 – Big Love, A Summary:
Fuck me, I don’t even know where to start. The craziest love story I ever had. Probably the craziest love story I will ever have. I started the blog because of this chap. We met in a war zone, he stole me away to the other side of the world, and then he broke my heart … repeatedly. I don’t think I’m EVER going to be fully recovered from him. I will ALWAYS want to return to the other side of the world to live out the rest of my days.
Lasted: 2 years + a bit (ish)
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I read something on the Thought Catalog that really made me think long and hard about what I’m doing. I don’t think I need to say it out loud, do I? I mean, I’ve said it once. It’s right there in the title. Fine. I’ll say it: I’m still not over my ex. In the piece on Thought Catalog, the writer said that she didn’t think she still loved her ex, but she also didn’t think that she was over him either. And that’s kind of how I feel right…
Read MoreI feel like I should start this blog post by saying Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I’ve been such a busy little bee that I’ve barely had time to blog at all, which is very uncool. I’m sorry about that. I’ve been working a lot, working my other job a lot, seeing my family, eating far too much food, seeing my man … You know how it is. Time just zips past too fast, doesn’t it? I have quite a lot to talk about so I’ll try to put…
Read MoreI’m moving soon. In preparation for the move, I’m going through a whole bunch of stuff and getting rid of things I no longer have a use for. That’s the plan, only it doesn’t appear to be working that way. I keep finding stuff that I wish I hadn’t found. Like the pink vibrator I once shoved up the Big Love’s ass, in a drawer I hardly ever go into. Clearly, it’s been cleaned now, but I can’t help but remember that night … when he came really hard and…
Read MoreIt was two years ago today, the fifth of February, that I left the other side of the world, the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, and run home to my family with my tail between my legs. The big ending of my Big Love story. Maybe it’s about time I found a more appropriate name for him, than ‘Big Love’? Guess what happened to me yesterday. In fact, I’ll just tell you. My best gal pal from the other side of…
Read MoreI’ve noticed something, folks. Something very odd. Or maybe not, I guess it depends which way you look at it. Either way, I’ve noticed it. I just so happen to be friends with a few of Big Love’s family members on Facebook, still. This isn’t a deliberate act; it’s accidental, I promise. They don’t post EVER, and they’re never online, never reach out to me, and never interact with my photos or updates. They’re just socially active people and that’s how come I missed them when I did the mid-breakup…
Read MoreI realised something today. I talk about Big Love a lot in this blog, but I don’t think I’ve ever really told you the full story of him, just the horrible, bitter, jealous, ranting, whining breakup bits. And those really are NOT the best bits of our story. Not by HALF. Our love story was insane. And I mean literally insane. You should hear it. We first met in a war zone. An actual war zone, not a metaphorical one. We were both civilian contractors, him from one side of…
Read MoreBig Love was the fairytale prince that swept me off my feet, true Disney story-style. That’s where I left off last time, right? The man who opened doors and showed me amazing adventures … just like that time we went skydiving. I don’t think skydiving was the reason we parted ways, but it was one of those turning-point events in our relationship that definitely signalled the beginning of the end. He wanted it to be his thing, but I really wanted to do it too, and because I did it,…
Read MoreI recently heard a rumour through the grapevine. One about Big Love. Someone told me that his current girlfriend was pregnant, so I immediately hopped on to Facebook and tapped his name in the search bar. Why? Because I’m stupid. It didn’t really matter though. It looks as though he’s deleted his Facebook page, along with a few of his other social accounts. Not content with still having no answers, I decided to type her name into the search bar. I got my answer the moment I saw her profile…
Read MoreI have something I wanna talk about. We all knew it was coming. I was looking for it I guess. Counting the days, secretly stalking because good old social media lets us… Big Love had a baby. He had a baby boy. I knew she was pregnant, the girlfriend I mean. I spoke about it a while ago. She changed her profile picture to a heavily pregnant one of her and it was oh so clear. I’d already had my suspicions, of course, little things she’d ‘liked’ on Facebook for…
Read MoreI found a folder in one of my clouds simply titled “Things I’ll Never Say”. It’s been such a long time since I went into the folder, I didn’t have a clue what was in it. Well … I found this, and I figured it was too beautiful a little tale to not share with you beautiful people. Because I Can’t Write a Novel – Day 10 One of my female friends asked me a question the other day, and it inspired this post. As much as I may…
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