When I think that life can’t kick my butt any more than it has done, it goes and deals me another blow. Not content with the hellish year of 2015, apparently 2016 is gonna be a bumpy one too.
Jock is engaged.
Yesterday one ex had a baby. Today I find out the love of my life is marrying someone else.
My heart has been ripped in two, not only by the news but also by the image that hit me when I went looking for her. The two of them together. She’s a carbon copy of me. Literally. She looks like me and she lives the same life I used to. We even have the same friends. She’s young too. They’re so happy together. I didn’t even know he was dating someone and then I find out he’s engaged. I wanted closure, I guess I got it. I am beyond devastated. I always kinda figured one day we might get back together. Not now.
I can’t put my heart through this anymore. I blocked them both. Tomorrow I’ll be spring cleaning. I need to get that man out of my life, out of my head and out of my heart. I can’t write down any more words. My heart hurts.
Let’s forget he exists. I don’t ever want to hear his name ever again.